CW: mentions of MH, quarantine

I am feeling beyond disconnected. With friends, family, the local community and myself. I feel lost.

I’m struggling today. Even ACNH isn’t helping and normally it’s a great distraction . Nothing really feels real or right and my anxiety is sitting pretty high on average. The thought of coming out of quarantine is terrifying, the fear of what happens when we try to move forward is unreal. I’m afraid of what happens next. It’s hard to see what the future holds, or at least frame it in a slightly positive light

I’m angry that we’re being failed by our government, I’m angry that healthcare workers aren’t being adequately protected, I’m angry that key members of government have felt that they could take actions that many others haven’t despite difficult circumstances. My heart breaks thinking of the families who are apart and hurting, those at the end of their lives who have to be alone, those who can’t say goodbye to loved ones

Today isn’t a good day and I can only hope tomorrow is better, the problems won’t have magically been resolved over night but maybe I’ll be better equipped to deal with them tomorrow. Right now I’m going to throw myself in to enjoying the weather with my son. I’m so grateful I can be at home with him and stay safe. I truly hope our key workers can do the same, I am so so grateful for the sacrifices you are all making. Thank you.